Today wasn’t so bad. I could feel the depression lifting and settling back in from time to time but overall it was better. The no-smoking thing is still really hard. I guess that’s probably a given but I feel like I need to keep saying it. <shrugs> This week will be better still. I have a few really hot dates set up and plan to stay busy as much as possible without dropping from exhaustion. Think good thoughts for me. I’ll try to write more on Thursday when I have a few minutes to myself.
… 525,600 minutes … 1,000 kisses … no day but today …
I “slipped” today and indulged in 4 cigarettes in less than 2 hours during and immediately following an extremely stressful bridesmaid-related event. I put slipped in quotes because I really want to just go buy a carton and admit that I’m just a huge loser with no self-control, but I haven’t cracked and bought any. I don’t have any fingernails left and I think I cleaned the grocery store out of all their ice-cream, but I haven’t given in to tempation yet. Shit I wish this didn’t suck as much as it does. I’m going to go cry in the shower now and try not to bang my head into the wall out of sheer frustration. Guh
I don’t feel good. I’m gonna go hide under the covers until work tomorrow. I’m sorry, sweetie - tonight just wasn’t meant to be but we’ll get it together one of these days. Promise! 
I’m going to play hookey from my day-job on Monday, 5/7 and after another interview in the city Monday morning, I’ll be taking sessions at Rapture from 1pm - 7pm.
Oh, and the DOSF post is in process! It’s going to be a doozey!