It seems that I am taking on too much (again) and the pressure is so much that I’m letting things slip. I lost my glasses, forgot my keys, left my phone charger behind, and the list goes on.
I talked to a few people about it and it looks like I need to cut back in order to regain some balance. That means I’m going to be saying No a lot more often. Not to you, my fans and online friends - I have already cut back here so much that any more would be like walking away and I’m just not going to do that. So who will bear the brunt of my new limits? Good question. I’m still mulling that one over.
Oh, and last weekend I was in Arizona visiting my grandparents. It was really nice but not quite long enough.
Nothing else for now - Need to get to bed so I can wake for work in the morning. <hugs>
Today was just terrible. If we could go back and erase it, I’d be a happy girl.
There were massive layoffs at my job today. A lot of people I thought of as friends are gone - just gone - and that makes me sad.
Things aren’t going well for Flagg and that makes me very sad.
How’s that song go? “If wishes were trees, the trees would be falling.” Yeah, I’d trade a whole forest for my friend if I could.
(hugs)
That’s the tag line for some car commercial currrently running during prime time. I don’t know what to say about it, except that it’s a really good question in today’s instant-gratification-mtv-culture. <shrugs>
Has it really been 6 weeks since my last post? I’m sorry! Here’s a quick recap:
- Things are going really well with my girlfriend, Daddy and Kimi.
- Work still sucks but I love the paycheck so I’m sticking it out for now.
- I’m planning to take the GMAT exam in the Spring - wish me luck in my studies!
- My wonderful zoo is doing a great job keeping me sane.
- Yesterday, I had my first massage in over a year and it was simply divine! I have to do that more often!!
- Tuesday night, Daddy is giving a class at TES on Kidnapping. You know I’ll be there
Friday, I got to see my favorite artist with my girl and her family before curling up beside her gorgeous body.
Saturday was a wonderful, sleep-filled treat - first with my girl, then with my Daddy.
Yesterday, I spent all day with my zoo.
I am ready to face the week.
My class at TES on BDSM Blunders went really well last night. Thanks to all who attended and participated. It was especially nice to have my Daddy, Sister and Girlfriend all supporting me.
This weekend will be busy in NYC with all the NYLW and PolyNYC events going on, but I’ll be home watching movies, catching up on e-mails, looking for a house to rent and playing with my dogs.
I’m totally exhausted, covered in welts and bruises, and am very happy with my life. Camp was great! I saw so many familiar faces and met a bunch of new ones. I had a few new experiences and repeated a bunch I haven’t touched in ages. I reconnected with some very important friends and added some more to my ever-expanding spiderweb of contacts, lovers, friends, fucks and so on. I’m totally unprepared to go into details now about the weekend but I’ll leave you with this … I got fucked by a porn star and then got invited to visit her and her hubby in thier home town!
I called out sick today. Trying to get better before my girlfriend and I head to DOSC07 on Thursday evening.
I really missed Kimi and Daddy when they went to D*C and I stayed behind. We won’t be doing that again!
FW was ok. Not great by any means but not the worst event I’ve been to either. It was nice being there with my girlfriend and my family. The panels I was on went pretty well. And since I don’t have anything else nice to say, I’ll just stop talking about it.
Work has been work - annoying but paying well.
I hope to get back in front of my machine a bit more after camp and the summer madness slows down a bit. I miss you all
I’m on my second business trip, to the same place, in Lexington KY and I’m ready to pull my hair out. It’s not that I think I’m smarter than everyone else, it’s just that I really resent all this hand holding. Ok, I know you all dont know what I’m babbling about but thats ok - this post is mostly to keep me from falling asleep during class.
I miss being home. I don’t think I’m going to like this job. I am already used to the twice-a-month poaycheck. I hope my attitude improves real quick! Wish me luck