This past Saturday, Seraphin and I went to the Eighth Annual Butterfly Festival from 12 to 4pm at the Watershed Reserve in NJ.
This year there weren’t many types of butterflies but I still took a lot of pictures and had a great time at the visitor center and the various ‘green’ booths.
It always strikes me as weird that Lady Bugs, Butterflies and Fireflies don’t gross me out but every other type of bug makes me squeal. For instance, at the Festival, there was an Insect Zoo and one of the attractions was Madagasgar Hissing Cockroaches. Eeeewwwwww! Those suckers are huge and they scurry/scuttle just the way the german ones do but they are huge!!! (shudder)
It seems that I am taking on too much (again) and the pressure is so much that I’m letting things slip. I lost my glasses, forgot my keys, left my phone charger behind, and the list goes on.
I talked to a few people about it and it looks like I need to cut back in order to regain some balance. That means I’m going to be saying No a lot more often. Not to you, my fans and online friends - I have already cut back here so much that any more would be like walking away and I’m just not going to do that. So who will bear the brunt of my new limits? Good question. I’m still mulling that one over.
Oh, and last weekend I was in Arizona visiting my grandparents. It was really nice but not quite long enough.
Nothing else for now - Need to get to bed so I can wake for work in the morning. <hugs>
Today was just terrible. If we could go back and erase it, I’d be a happy girl.
There were massive layoffs at my job today. A lot of people I thought of as friends are gone - just gone - and that makes me sad.
Things aren’t going well for Flagg and that makes me very sad.
How’s that song go? “If wishes were trees, the trees would be falling.” Yeah, I’d trade a whole forest for my friend if I could.
(hugs)
Friday, I got to see my favorite artist with my girl and her family before curling up beside her gorgeous body.
Saturday was a wonderful, sleep-filled treat - first with my girl, then with my Daddy.
Yesterday, I spent all day with my zoo.
I am ready to face the week.
My class at TES on BDSM Blunders went really well last night. Thanks to all who attended and participated. It was especially nice to have my Daddy, Sister and Girlfriend all supporting me.
This weekend will be busy in NYC with all the NYLW and PolyNYC events going on, but I’ll be home watching movies, catching up on e-mails, looking for a house to rent and playing with my dogs.
I’m totally exhausted, covered in welts and bruises, and am very happy with my life. Camp was great! I saw so many familiar faces and met a bunch of new ones. I had a few new experiences and repeated a bunch I haven’t touched in ages. I reconnected with some very important friends and added some more to my ever-expanding spiderweb of contacts, lovers, friends, fucks and so on. I’m totally unprepared to go into details now about the weekend but I’ll leave you with this … I got fucked by a porn star and then got invited to visit her and her hubby in thier home town! 
I called out sick today. Trying to get better before my girlfriend and I head to DOSC07 on Thursday evening.
I really missed Kimi and Daddy when they went to D*C and I stayed behind. We won’t be doing that again!
FW was ok. Not great by any means but not the worst event I’ve been to either. It was nice being there with my girlfriend and my family. The panels I was on went pretty well. And since I don’t have anything else nice to say, I’ll just stop talking about it.
Work has been work - annoying but paying well.
I hope to get back in front of my machine a bit more after camp and the summer madness slows down a bit. I miss you all
The new job is pretty good so far. They’re sending me on a business trip to middle-America tomorrow until Wednesday evening with two co-workers.Â
The girlfriend relationship is harder than I expected. You see, I wasn’t planning to get into anything serious. I really was just looking for a good time, a pleasant diversion, nothing emotional… I guess that’s typical - when you’re looking for a serious realtionship, you can’t find it. When you’re looking for a little light-hearted fun, destiny decides to fuck with your heart. Destiny is a bitch that way. Mind you, I’m not complaining - it’s just not what I had planned and you know how I love surprises.
Not much else to say right now - gotta get packing for the trip tomorrow.
A lot has happened in the last few weeks - I can’t believe it’s been so long since I posted - so I’m going to hit the high points in bullet form and not in chronological order …
- My girl-pal is officially my girlfriend
- I start a fulltime, with benefits, RealJob ™ tomorrow morning in Jersey City, NJ.
- Because I haven’t taken a session since February, I am now listed as an Independant on Rapture’s website instead of one of thier house dommes.
- Going forward, Prometheus magazine will be a web-based publication.
- I have dreams that I started smoking again but it’s only my subconscious fucking with me. I haven’t and I am pretty sure that I won’t. It’s still rough, every day is a battle, but I’m not going to give in again.
- My cats and my puppies restore my serenity. I’m going to miss the hell out of them during the week, when I’m sleeping at Daddy’s place to avoid the long commute.
- My new vertical nipple piercings are healing nicely.
You may now return to your regularly scheduled programming and I’ll try not to let another 3 weeks pass before I make another update.