I’m totally exhausted, covered in welts and bruises, and am very happy with my life. Camp was great! I saw so many familiar faces and met a bunch of new ones. I had a few new experiences and repeated a bunch I haven’t touched in ages. I reconnected with some very important friends and added some more to my ever-expanding spiderweb of contacts, lovers, friends, fucks and so on. I’m totally unprepared to go into details now about the weekend but I’ll leave you with this … I got fucked by a porn star and then got invited to visit her and her hubby in thier home town! 
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I called out sick today. Trying to get better before my girlfriend and I head to DOSC07 on Thursday evening.
I really missed Kimi and Daddy when they went to D*C and I stayed behind. We won’t be doing that again!
FW was ok. Not great by any means but not the worst event I’ve been to either. It was nice being there with my girlfriend and my family. The panels I was on went pretty well. And since I don’t have anything else nice to say, I’ll just stop talking about it.
Work has been work - annoying but paying well.
I hope to get back in front of my machine a bit more after camp and the summer madness slows down a bit. I miss you all
I’m on my second business trip, to the same place, in Lexington KY and I’m ready to pull my hair out. It’s not that I think I’m smarter than everyone else, it’s just that I really resent all this hand holding. Ok, I know you all dont know what I’m babbling about but thats ok - this post is mostly to keep me from falling asleep during class.
I miss being home. I don’t think I’m going to like this job. I am already used to the twice-a-month poaycheck. I hope my attitude improves real quick! Wish me luck
The new job is pretty good so far. They’re sending me on a business trip to middle-America tomorrow until Wednesday evening with two co-workers.Â
The girlfriend relationship is harder than I expected. You see, I wasn’t planning to get into anything serious. I really was just looking for a good time, a pleasant diversion, nothing emotional… I guess that’s typical - when you’re looking for a serious realtionship, you can’t find it. When you’re looking for a little light-hearted fun, destiny decides to fuck with your heart. Destiny is a bitch that way. Mind you, I’m not complaining - it’s just not what I had planned and you know how I love surprises.
Not much else to say right now - gotta get packing for the trip tomorrow.
A lot has happened in the last few weeks - I can’t believe it’s been so long since I posted - so I’m going to hit the high points in bullet form and not in chronological order …
- My girl-pal is officially my girlfriend
- I start a fulltime, with benefits, RealJob ™ tomorrow morning in Jersey City, NJ.
- Because I haven’t taken a session since February, I am now listed as an Independant on Rapture’s website instead of one of thier house dommes.
- Going forward, Prometheus magazine will be a web-based publication.
- I have dreams that I started smoking again but it’s only my subconscious fucking with me. I haven’t and I am pretty sure that I won’t. It’s still rough, every day is a battle, but I’m not going to give in again.
- My cats and my puppies restore my serenity. I’m going to miss the hell out of them during the week, when I’m sleeping at Daddy’s place to avoid the long commute.
- My new vertical nipple piercings are healing nicely.
You may now return to your regularly scheduled programming and I’ll try not to let another 3 weeks pass before I make another update.
… but I’m really tired too!
In reverse chronological order, from last night to my last entry, behind the cut. Continue reading ‘I’m having a great time…’
I’ll be teaching a class at DSF tomorrow night. If you’re in the NYC area, and not squicked by blood, please come on by and show your support Full class description on the DSF website. Thanks!
Today wasn’t so bad. I could feel the depression lifting and settling back in from time to time but overall it was better. The no-smoking thing is still really hard. I guess that’s probably a given but I feel like I need to keep saying it. <shrugs> This week will be better still. I have a few really hot dates set up and plan to stay busy as much as possible without dropping from exhaustion. Think good thoughts for me. I’ll try to write more on Thursday when I have a few minutes to myself.
… 525,600 minutes … 1,000 kisses … no day but today …
I “slipped” today and indulged in 4 cigarettes in less than 2 hours during and immediately following an extremely stressful bridesmaid-related event. I put slipped in quotes because I really want to just go buy a carton and admit that I’m just a huge loser with no self-control, but I haven’t cracked and bought any. I don’t have any fingernails left and I think I cleaned the grocery store out of all their ice-cream, but I haven’t given in to tempation yet. Shit I wish this didn’t suck as much as it does. I’m going to go cry in the shower now and try not to bang my head into the wall out of sheer frustration. Guh
Today, I quit smoking. Again. Continue reading ‘I must be a masocist or something’