The new job is pretty good so far. They’re sending me on a business trip to middle-America tomorrow until Wednesday evening with two co-workers.Â
The girlfriend relationship is harder than I expected. You see, I wasn’t planning to get into anything serious. I really was just looking for a good time, a pleasant diversion, nothing emotional… I guess that’s typical - when you’re looking for a serious realtionship, you can’t find it. When you’re looking for a little light-hearted fun, destiny decides to fuck with your heart. Destiny is a bitch that way. Mind you, I’m not complaining - it’s just not what I had planned and you know how I love surprises.
Not much else to say right now - gotta get packing for the trip tomorrow.
A lot has happened in the last few weeks - I can’t believe it’s been so long since I posted - so I’m going to hit the high points in bullet form and not in chronological order …
- My girl-pal is officially my girlfriend
- I start a fulltime, with benefits, RealJob ™ tomorrow morning in Jersey City, NJ.
- Because I haven’t taken a session since February, I am now listed as an Independant on Rapture’s website instead of one of thier house dommes.
- Going forward, Prometheus magazine will be a web-based publication.
- I have dreams that I started smoking again but it’s only my subconscious fucking with me. I haven’t and I am pretty sure that I won’t. It’s still rough, every day is a battle, but I’m not going to give in again.
- My cats and my puppies restore my serenity. I’m going to miss the hell out of them during the week, when I’m sleeping at Daddy’s place to avoid the long commute.
- My new vertical nipple piercings are healing nicely.
You may now return to your regularly scheduled programming and I’ll try not to let another 3 weeks pass before I make another update.
… but I’m really tired too!
In reverse chronological order, from last night to my last entry, behind the cut. Continue reading ‘I’m having a great time…’
I’ll be teaching a class at DSF tomorrow night. If you’re in the NYC area, and not squicked by blood, please come on by and show your support Full class description on the DSF website. Thanks!
Today wasn’t so bad. I could feel the depression lifting and settling back in from time to time but overall it was better. The no-smoking thing is still really hard. I guess that’s probably a given but I feel like I need to keep saying it. <shrugs> This week will be better still. I have a few really hot dates set up and plan to stay busy as much as possible without dropping from exhaustion. Think good thoughts for me. I’ll try to write more on Thursday when I have a few minutes to myself.
… 525,600 minutes … 1,000 kisses … no day but today …
I “slipped” today and indulged in 4 cigarettes in less than 2 hours during and immediately following an extremely stressful bridesmaid-related event. I put slipped in quotes because I really want to just go buy a carton and admit that I’m just a huge loser with no self-control, but I haven’t cracked and bought any. I don’t have any fingernails left and I think I cleaned the grocery store out of all their ice-cream, but I haven’t given in to tempation yet. Shit I wish this didn’t suck as much as it does. I’m going to go cry in the shower now and try not to bang my head into the wall out of sheer frustration. Guh
I don’t feel good. I’m gonna go hide under the covers until work tomorrow. I’m sorry, sweetie - tonight just wasn’t meant to be but we’ll get it together one of these days. Promise!
I’m going to play hookey from my day-job on Monday, 5/7 and after another interview in the city Monday morning, I’ll be taking sessions at Rapture from 1pm - 7pm.
Oh, and the DOSF post is in process! It’s going to be a doozey!
Due to the rain & flooding issues on Friday, I rescheduled my interview for tomorrow (Monday) at the same time & place. I’m not really sure I want the job but I need the interview practice. If they offer me the job, I’ll have some tough choices to make. Until then, I’ll try to focus on impressing the hell out of them.
The rest of my week is about typical. I know I still owe ya’ll a DOSF post and I swear it’s coming. Perhaps I’ll write it tomorrow night while Kimi and Daddy are at their Dojo.